One week back from Hong Kong and things have been going and going and going.  As always, i'm trying to juggle way too many jobs at the same time.  Saying my goodbyes to CCTV have been weird and kind of sad.  Just found out one of our producers is having a baby, and we all went out for Korean food.  Near the end I knew I was getting to be a bit of trouble for them because of my hectic schedule and procrastination, but I was, I think generally easy to work with. But this was going to happen eventually anyway and now that the powers that be have decided that's time for me to leave, we've all decided to make this a graceful exit.  So I'm getting them set up until the end of December which means lots more tapings and scripts to write. I even got to see the audition of the new girls for the show.  I'll miss the paycheck, but I think I'll miss working with them more. I only saw them three or four times a month, but it was an good family of friends at our little program.   Life has more things waiting for me, and this goodbye would have had to happen anyway. It's these things that push you forward, make you grow as an individual.

 

The Hitfm Job is still going.  I'm starting to reach a strange turning point there, with this hit pause feeling coming from Hit FM.  I love what I do there, and I enjoy the fact that I'm putting lots of music onto the air and that my audience is growing with me.  But again, I'm not doing enough for it. I'm back to doing events again, helping Nate's 3BM Partner with one of his events. The event was a blessing and it works perfectly with my current scattered patterns of thought.  It's not very difficult, especially compared to the Great Wall Concert and the Forbes Global Forum. No Government flunkies to deal with, no nasty stars and their nasty posse's, no disagreable Texans with too much ego and too little experience. This event is a series of manageable small occurances that happen one after another and give you plenty of time to solve it. Simon is very professional, through a bit grumpy at times, and the actor troupes are also. . . manageable.  The Chinese Theatre companies are nice people, but very 2nd tier.  So there are issues, because they don't understand the difference between putting a little wasted effort in as a precaution versus having a fuck-up and making the show look amateur.  But then again, we have a different system of loyalties really, so I can't necessarily blame them.  But frankly, they just don't know better.

 

The two bands, because of all these jobs, are nearly on haitus. I'm fantasizing about getting myself a whole month in the studio to write music and to create new songs to perform.  It's something that everyone wants to do, and I see the guys bursting with ideas all the time.  We're going through marvelous growing stage, and they've finally gotten to the place where they listen to music and pull from it intelligently, than create their own compositions.  After this event, that's what I want to do, go to the studio everyday to write music. Write a whole album in the space of weeks.  What do I care if it's commercial as long as it's good. I think in the last year, I'm finally learning to become an artist.  I kept on thinking about when I was happy, and I just remember being happiest playing a new song for someone and having the like it.  Writing music without too much fore-thought about what it meant to the market and more about what it meant to me.  So after the EP called "THE RETURN" is released, I will ironically return to myself.  If our music is good, we'll just have to keep performing and performing and honing our craft. THere's not much that can stop us after that.  Just one step at a time. . . when we're ready. 

 

Everything will come in time.  That's what god (without a capital G) has taught me all these years.  Everything has it's own clock, and you cannot rush it, you can only make yourself as prepared as possible and simply, stay tuned.  1 1/2 years after Perhaps Love, I have another minor role in a motion picture coming up. And maybe 3 years after that, I'll finally get to star in one. . . who knows.